Monday, May 11, 2009


That's the topic for today.
Love to me is something that you can't define at all.
You never knew when you're in love. And when you are, you feel the world is yours. Everything is just perfect in your eyes.
And when you aren't, you feel so left out. No one there for you, just you alone vs the world.

I met this someone, so very special. At least, to me she was, and still is.
But would you force someone when they don't love you? Of course it'll be a 'no'.
The world was mine. My smile became sweeter. Flowers bloom again in my heart.
But now, the world doesn't want me, my smile is bitter, the flowers are dead.
It hurts so much though. But I'm not blaming her or anyone at all.
Because she makes me happy.

It's all because of me. I kept my problems to myself. Didn't tell her at all. Because I've promised I'll be there with her. Don't wanna hurt her, so I kept it from her, I thought of solving it on my own. Totally my fault when I knew she's there for me anytime. I recklessly did the wrong thing.
I wish I can turned back time. But time is love as well. Treasure it or waste it. It's all on you.

And now I decided to back off from this place. Because I hurt the most important person to me.
I'm in vain, I'm weak again. I can't stand on my own foot. I'm not begging for her forgiveness, I want her forgiveness. I don't need her love, I'm dying for her love. Damn, now this is killing me.
I wanna see her face, see her laugh, and even see her sing a song for me. I still owe her a song as well.

This is part of the lyrics that I wrote but now it's no use anymore...

...because I want her happy
...and I love her smile

I have no more idea on what to write. My mind's so messed up right now. I don't want goodbye.

Lucky I still have my blog to express everything.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

A Total Dipshit I Was

A bad day for me.
The worst to be more accurate.
Because of my silly annoying attitude.
I've ruined everything away.
When I was feeling so happy. Things turned out to be different.
And there's no way of turning back.
I really hope I can do it, because I need that someone back.
Now I'm dedicating this back to her...

"All my sorrows flew away
Hush keep quiet hear me say
I don't ever want you to go
Please stay..."

I know it's too late, but everything for me is never too late.
I'll try my best and fix everything.
This I promise because I've promised I'll protect everything.
I'm a dipshit and I know that.
A 'sorry' can't fix everything...
But it's not my mouth that wanna say sorry.
My heart told me to say that.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Happy Again

Hi, I'm back.
I'll have a paper later morning.
So before I continue revision.
I wanna write something inside.
The topic is 'Happy Again'.
Yeah, since yesterday, I was very happy.
Something nice happened to me.
And I mean it. Very nice.
Thanks yeah to that particular person.
For making me so happy.
You make my world goes round and round.
A million words to describe you, but I can't even type anything to picture you.
Well, it's ok though.
Lemme keep it to myself bout how special you are.
Hurmm, I think I'll continue my revision now.
But will be back soon yeah.
Wish me luck later morning.
Good bye.

Thanks fore reading.Muah muah!!!

Friday, May 1, 2009

Story of a Story-teller

Hi friends, I'm back.
Time passes by so quick. Just realized that this semester is finally coming to an end.
I may not be able to see some of the faces I've been with next semester.
Especially to BUDDY, I wish you guys all the best. Congratulations in advance for your upcoming graduation. I will miss you guys so much. Friends and brothers you are to me. Knowing all of you was very fun. I hope that we can meet again some time.

And to some of them, I wish you all the best and looking forward to see you guys again. This semester was the best moment I've ever experienced at my campus. I made so many friends. And thanks for that. I really appreciate you guys for taking your time to know me. I will treasure it. My coursemates are the best. Especially to 'Geng Mumaiyiz'. You girls are the greatest. You rock my word, you shake my world, and you make me dance. Hahahaha. Thanks yeah for everything.

And to my so-called brother and sisters, what can I say more. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!! You make me feel like home. Always there for me, laugh with me, pampering me. Aaahhh, all of you are so sweet. I am really looking forward to see all of you again the upcoming semester. So we can hang around more and more and more until we realized the world is ours. Hahaha. Kak Siti, Kak Izza, Kak Gee and Jai. Hahahaha. See you again next semester!!!

That is all about what I want to talk about this time. Will be back soon.
Thanks for reading. Love you guys and girls. Muah muah muah!!!